Yes, said that I was super busy , but it's lunch time & my delivery isn't here yet..
So , am gna use this time to blog because I am so bored..
Ander is searching for jobs available , Marco is sleeping , the rest went for 2nd half meeting..
I'm free for the moment because my laoban is out for meeting too :D:D

What do I really expect from my life ? I really didn't know , but I bet I wna earn big bucks with the help of my education..
Everyone around me , close friends who understands me inside out, family that never fails to stand by me , boyfriend who'd shown me how much he loves & can't do it w/o me ...
We share the special bond, we laugh at the same thing, we cry together at situations & debate on arguments..
But no one shares the same prospect of life as me .. We have same interest but we don't have the same goal to achieve in our future , life .. None..
Thinking about it , I ain't afraid to achieve it myself , but will they still be there to celebrate the joyous occasion with me ?
10years down , will we still sit down at void decks or cafe talking about how sucky life, be it school life or working life is ? Will we still share the same dream of working out together as a clique?

I enjoy the company of my family , boyfriend & lovelyees [bestfriends]..
Probably because I am too reliant on them , knowing that no matter what happens, they're always there to solve all kinds of problems with me .. Because I've been through and they were all there , together with me .. They cried with me , they laugh together with me , they objected all sorts of nonsensical ideas I thought, they reprimanded me for all my wrong doings , they bullied me when I'm drunk , when I wanted some time alone , they always hide at a corner secretly looking at me , seeing how am I doing back then.. They were there , every now & then .. They never really left me alone , at the darkness of dim hopes..
I really counted myself lucky , to have a sister who loves me like I'm her only child , my mother who shares all her troubles with me , though my dad & brother aren't in good terms, but they're still dear to me..
To have a boyfriend who made me really mad at him when he did outrageous stuffs behind me , who begged for forgiveness and promised he won't .. The benefit of doubts , allowed me to forgive him & now we're doing well ..
To have bestfriends who were always there , no matter how short/long we've known each other , they're still there , to make me the centre of attention when I'm down.. No matter how much misunderstandings we met in between , they were all forgiving , they took me as their treasure and dote on me like their own sister.. Trying to achieve whatever I want , and give the best to me whenever they can..
I've seen all the efforts , from every single of my them..
People in my life, you guys really played a great role in my life , it wouldn't be this great without you guys, the little effort of making my life better or squeezing the brain juice out to make a smile on my face or even the least , shooting & suaning me till I laugh because it was really awesome & hilarious..
It'd been really nice knowing you guys..

Suddenly, deep down , I felt so sour , heart wrenching to see people fall apart & yet I can do nothing..
I tried , I speak up , I've tried my very best .. I want the best for all of us , because afterall , we're still being seen as ONE.

ONE stands for sharing every single lil things together.. ONE stands for being there for each other when we're down.. ONE stands for sharing all moments together, be it happy or sad.. ONE stands for going through all obstacles together no matter how tough it is ,
copyrighted-CHEECHEE : to everyone in my life..

Through this life , going 18 years of my life , I've made outrageous mistakes, uncountable mistakes , unforgivable mistakes.. I've made great achievements , change people's life into better one, wake idiots up to become a better person in their life.. I've made good friends who stood by me for years , in fact more than 10years too.. I've made enemies who were my best friends , who shared every lil secrets with me before, who possessed my property..

Now , it is a straight fine line.. With no more grudges, knowing that we're strangers once again for my enemies, and knowing that we're the one for each other when dawn rises, for my best friends..

I really don't know why .. How much uncountable good deeds I've done in my previous life , to gain such good friends in life for really being there for me , allowing me to know they'll always be there to listen to my weels&sorrows, to share my happiness & laughters..

& Right here , I'll apologise to anyone that I've offended in the past for my childish act , if I ever slapped you , if I ever screw you with all my words with my cliques , I'm sorry for all the misdeeds and faults and hurts I've brought upon you.. Thinking back , I only have a few enemies who hated me compare to my whole lot of good buddies.. But still , my apology..

I never wna draw a clear line between my friends and boyfriend because both are equally important.. I hope no one would compare where they stand in my heart because you guys all weigh the same in my heart..
I suddenly felt like I have to really thank some people in my life.. So much so that they really did so much for me for the past few years.. Showing that I really didn't take you guys for granted (:

Thank you Anderyn Khoo : For always being the first to show how much you cared and concerned.. Whenever I was about to shed a tear , you would be there to hold me & tell me , you are rushing down to meet me.. No matter where you were , how far and who are you with , you are always trying your best to rush down to meet me to let me have a ease at mind .. No matter how bad I treated you , how I bullied you , how I scream and shout at you , you're still the same to me .. You never doubt me , you never fail to give in to me , I know it but it is just so hard for me to express because I'm just so hard on myself on the outside & you all knows that ... Just now when you saw me blogging , I told you it wasn't referring to you , it was a lie..& you showed me how disappointed and "HURT" you are , I really wna tell you , you're the bitch of my life , one of the best gift God has given to me , to stay with me all these while , for the past 16years going 17years, 5months after I turn 18. HAHAHAHA. You must be wondering why I'm laughing so loudly just now right ? Because I'm typing this .. & You'll be fuming when you see this , the joke between us..

Thank you JCMC : We were best friends since primary 6, whenever you hear about people talking about me be it good or bad , you were always there to speak up for me .. You never fail to stand up for me until secondary 4.. We had a ultimate big misunderstanding ... Tears shed so much for losing a friend like you but I'm really glad we're back as ONE again.. Though we're not as close as before , I know we both are trying very hard to get back like before because you & I have been organising to meet up , love you girl , Thank you for every lil things you've done for me for the past many many years :D

Thank you Barney : We've been good friends for 5years because of Ms Phoon's lesson.. Thank you for being my good buddy :D

Saving the last for the best ...
Thank you CHS : You are the only one who dares to make me flare my angers at you , giving me attitude and showing that you're no wrong when you're in deep shit ! HAHAHA. Life have been better after I met you , it was great.. Thanks for making the effort to change and giving me more spaces. Thank you , & because of your effort , I am able to update myself to my friends & I'm updated about them.. I LOVE YOU BABY (:

Definitely , not forgetting , WangJunjie, NatalieGXY , RowenaNYL, & my super girls, 11sistas :D

TThough I don't know what is my definition of me typing this post , I just feel like typing it & so it resulted in this LONG post & I'm sorry if this is ridiculous & boring.. HAHAHA.
My appreciations to all my love ones in my life and the ones who hated me , I love you all :D

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